I'm turning 19 on the 21st.

I almost want to cancel every plan I've made, call my friend, and do what I want to do for my birthday. Everything I'm doing is emptying my already empty bank account and I can't deal with that. I just want to save for weekend beer runs and kandieland VI so I can meet . That's it.

I'm so discouraged with everything I don't want to write or take pictures or even make new kandi since an annoying friend I don't consider a friend ruined it.

Yet I'm really happy right now. I'm thinking positive so you guys don't need to yell at me again. I'm really distracted right now by amazing day dreams thanks to Jeremy, but I'm happy so don't worry.


Something fantastic needs to happen that's completely free. I can't keep spending faster than I'm earning.